Ever heard of or used The Wonder Weeks app? When I had Tristan I used this amazing & very insightful app to help us know when things would be a little tougher (than normal) and what to expect and, most importantly, why he was more needy, requiring more comfort and feeding. What does it cost? … Continue reading The Wonder Weeks
So last night I couldn't sleep. I'm going to be a mom to 2 boys and there's a small part of me that's sad & disappointed that I'm not having a girl. Now before you go all crazy on my arse about not being grateful that I'm pregnant bla bla bla, let me just say … Continue reading Mom 2 boys
Tristan is not well at the moment - he's been vomiting since Sunday afternoon, his body is hot to the touch but no temp and has a cough which makes him vomit more! So for the last 2 nights I've been awake a lot and last night while lying here around 3am I had my … Continue reading My ah-ha moment
I decided not to take the clomid again. I'm waiting for an appointment confirmation with my psychologist. My mental health & wellbeing is more important and this whole situation is driving me dilly. But I've got real concerns about having a second baby and it appears I'm not alone. I did some googling last night … Continue reading My anxieties
Why do we all have such a tough time with mothers guilt? And why do we experience it so often? This evening we had a wonderful time before bath time with Tristan doing a very funny 'macig sow' aka magic show, he even headed off to bath as soon as I told him it was … Continue reading Mothers’ guilt
A letter to my son, Tristan. My dearest first born, Tristan! There is so much I want to tell you but that's why I started this blog. I hope one day you will sit down and read all the entries and be thankful I kept all these memories for you. I also hope that it … Continue reading Letter to my son
Friday (20 July) was a shit day; I've been trying to lose weight (yes again, same shit different day but yes I will be sharing more about this in another post) and even going so far as to give up dairy and in 3 weeks I lost 1kg! WTF? So I was just having a … Continue reading My digital detox
Today when I dropped Tristan off at the gym creche so I could do my workout, he had a complete meltdown and I (eventually) went to do my workout but felt really saddened by his reaction to my leaving. This is our separation anxiety story. Tristan is coming to the end of a 3 week … Continue reading Separation anxiety
Why do I keep a blog? To me blogging is about keeping a record for a) myself as I find it therapeutic and writing something down helps me process it, 2) if my stories & experiences can help someone else then I will be most thrilled and 3) so one day Tristan (and another child … Continue reading Why do I keep a blog
I want to write this all down before it becomes a too distant memory. I think I've shared bits and pieces of my experience before but I felt it deserves its own post, so here goes. Firstly everyone's experience with postnatal depression (PND) is different and unique. My story will be completely different to every … Continue reading My postnatal depression story